Night of Panic Mode

A few nights ago I had a rough sleep. So while I stared at the clock I laid in bed thinking about our baby coming into the world any day. I think about this every night, and every night I am filled with excitement which keeps me up. But that night I was filled with panic, because it is real. He could really come now. Any day. I will be 38 weeks in just 14 days. And 37 weeks in just 7 days. What if I was a mom in 14 days or less? I am excited to be a mom, but right now I feel horrible because I am not prepared. So many things still need to be done and bought.

OKAY, OKAY. So after some deep breaths and a rough sleep I realized in the morning that my panic was a little extreme. But the wee hours of the night can get a mind going.

Here were some of my late night worries:
- I haven't packed a hospital bag
- We have no newborn diapers yet!
- I haven't mailed all the baby shower thank you's (Minor detail, Yes)
- I haven't put curtains up in his room (Again minor detail)
- We have no newborn pacifiers or pacifier clips
- We have no newborn sleepers/ pajamas/ sleep sacks, and very few outfits
- We don't have a baby monitor
- The car seat is not installed, and the car seat pad is not washed (the swing pad isn't washed either)
- We need a new humidifier (this one is more for me mostly, I have been dying since ours broke recently)
- I don't have any nursing supplies
- I don't have baby memory book yet (to record all his firsts)
- I don't have batteries in the swing or pack n' play
- We have nothing to wash our baby in or with

- I haven't washed any baby clothes/blankets yet (and I have no baby detergent to do it with)

I'm pretty sure my not done list could have gone on and on. But these are the ones I can remember.

Don't worry I have come back to reality and am no longer in panic mode. In reality, it will probably be another good 28 days or so until I meet our baby. But when you realize that he is considered full term at 37 weeks, which is one week away, it is a little crazy to think it is a possibility; and... yeah I have some definite work to do.

The good news is I just had a baby shower and got baby bath stuff and a package of diapers. Tomorrow we have our 36 week doctor appointment and afterwards we are going to make a trip to Target for the essentials. Then I will feel a little more prepared, and then my panic will be gone and I will be back to my late nights of eager anticipation. To be honest I am already back to hoping he comes early, just not tonight or tomorrow. But the next day I will be good and ready!