Dear Baby

Dear Baby Sydney,

It is only weeks before we get to meet you, so soon it seems and yet so far. Every week seems a milestone closer to seeing your little face. And hearing your first cries. I love hearing your name in our home, and having your big brother, Connor, say it. He is so sweet and can't wait to meet you. He has just recently gotten the concept that he to was a baby when he was small. He loves telling everyone that he was a baby too! Bella loves babies, her face just lights up when she sees one. I can't wait to have you in our home, to brighten the faces of Connor and Bella all the time, not to mention the faces of Mommy and Daddy too. Daddy wants you to come right now! He is more impatient than me this time :) It makes me laugh hearing him talk about you and what we imagine you will look like. Brown or Blonde Hair? Blue or Brown Eyes, or Maybe Green like your Brother's?

We are still finishing prepping your room/Mommy and Daddy's room. But we have made a lot of progress and it makes me feel good having things in place for you. I have a few friends that are due with little babies around the same time as me, although it seems they are all before me by a month or a couple weeks. It is hard seeing them getting so close, and having their babies and holding them in their arms. I can't help but be so anxious for your arrival. But I know you are preparing to come too, and growing healthy and strong so that you can breath deep and show off your nice strong lungs.

I went through boxes of old babies last month and seeing all the tiny outfits, and remembering your big brother and sister in many of them made me miss those days. They pass so fast. I know it wont be long before I am doing the same for you, I just hope I can hold on a little tighter to your baby days, right from the beginning. I hope to record lots of videos of you and your brother and sister, so I don't forget all the simple things of your early days.

It is a special bond as mother and child that we hold right now. As I care for you in your most dependent state, I get to feel your little body grow and grow. There isn't much space left. You are squished, with your head down low and your lower half to my right side and your knees kicked out to my left (I think). It gets very uncomfortable when your uncomfortable and seek a new position, because there is such little room. How frustrating it must be for you. I can feel you moving around right now (with rhythmic hiccup motions - the first time I've felt you have those although I am sure it's not your first time) and know you are anxious to come and meet the world that surrounds you. It will be scary having your life change so rapidly, everything you have known will disappear within moments. But so many people love you already and are eager for your arrival. We all cannot wait to see your beautiful eyes, tiny fingers and toes, and hold you; so tiny and new. Everyone here can't wait to leave soft kisses on your soft delicate skin, so expect lots!

We often talk of you and imagine how you will fit into our home and our routine, although, I know you will make a routine all your own. It is such a comfort to know that no matter how slowly time seems to pass your cries will soon fill our home; making it all the warmer, a little more crazy, yes, but the love that comes with a newborn is indescribable it fills you completely.
How I love you Sydney.

Love,

Mommy