Mother's Day 2019

Motherhood is everything I imagined and nothing I imagined. 

It is filled with milestones of victories and failures. 

I feel so grateful for these 4 beautiful children, 

even if it's almost impossible to make them all happy at the same time 

I’m a love my routine mom and a trash the routine mom, all in the same day. I’m a forget about homework and mix up pajama and hat day type mom. I’m a proud mom, always ready to take on the wild looks and comments, “Are they all yours?” I’m a let’s go explore mom. I’m a cuddle up with hot cocoa and a movie mom. I’m a don’t want to share mom, so wait till the kids go to bed to break out all the sweets mom. I’m a let it all out mom. I’m a don’t sweat the small stuff mom. I’m a freak out mom. I’m a hypocrite mom. I’m a think I’m going crazy mom. I'm a love this life mom. I’m a love God first mom. I’m a love you no matter what you do or don’t do mom. I’m a dance in the kitchen and sing in the car mom, (whatever embarrasses Con most). I’m a songs and stories and kisses mom no matter the age. I’m a I’ll carry you to bed even when your faking mom. I’m a try to be calm mom, but I’m also yeller mom too. I’m an always saying sorry mom. I’m a let me snuggle and play with your hair mom. I’m a worry all night mom. I’m a reader mom, never too many books mom. I’m a hate to be late, “yep late again” mom. I’m a let’s play together mom and a hide upstairs in the quiet mom. I’m a tell me everything mom. I’m a let’s try to eat healthy mom and occasionally serve cookies for breakfast type mom. I’m a no sleeping in my bed mom, but 3 am I’m too tired to care mom. I’m a let them be little and when will they grow up mom. I’m a see a screaming unruly child in the shopping cart, “been there” mom. I’m a there is no right and wrong in parenting mom. I’m a breast and bottle type mom. I’m a co-sleep and cry it out mom. I’m a love home school but public school keeps me sane mom. I’m a whatever I think is best mom. 

I’m not perfect. 

BUT I know I am exactly the mom my kids need!

We live in a world where Mom's especially are judged A LOT!

Usually by other Mom's. 

And I won't lie I have felt a lot of dirty looks for having this wild crew. 

I try hard not to feel awkward as we pass some stranger staring and proud instead. 

But being pregnant makes me a little more vulnerable. 

I am so truly grateful for this little one that will make me a Mom once again and more than ever am relishing the experience of growing baby. There is no greater gift and I am forever grateful that I get to experience the joy that comes with this Motherhood journey. 

Week 29