Love Mommy.

Dear Connor,

I recently signed you up for preschool. It was exciting to fill out the little form and realize that you are getting so big. While you are playing at school in the fall we will miss you, but I know you are a social little bumble bee and you will love it SO MUCH. 
Considering how well you have done in the toddler lab (2 x week for 1.5 hrs), I couldn't keep you from something that makes you so utterly thrilled. And I admit it gives Mommy a little break to nap with your sister.
You are growing so fast and I can't say your my baby anymore, and that makes me sad. But I try hard to hold on tight to all my moments snuggling you as you sleep and kissing your cheeks, because I know you wont let me forever. I love our story times and how much you enjoy listening to me read. And your "again again!" makes me feel so good. There are times where you are unhappy and frustrated with not getting your way, but I know it is hard to figure out life. I am helping as much as I can and I only wish I was better at helping you overcome the tantrum two stage. But I know we will get through this phase together and you will soon be enjoying a new phase of independence and understanding only too shortly. I can't say I don't yearn for a little less fit throwing, but I will miss my baby as you grow older.
You are such a strong spirited independent boy. You are a leader with your friends, and a lover of all things sports related. I can already see me driving you to football practice and basketball camps. Oh boy we are in for a busy and wild life. Daddy is so excited for more boys just like you. He is seriously in love with you. Some days I have to tear him away from you so that we can go out. And Daddy is a big push over when you put on that pouty lip and give him those big sad eyes. With all your hugs and kisses it is hard not to melt. Lately every time Daddy comes home you open your arms wide and run to the door waiting for your hugs and your sister runs right after following your every example.
I know nap time isn't your favorite, and I know we've been spoiling you by letting you sleep with us. But we love watching you sleep and being there for your every nightmare or spoiled dream. So we relish in the sweet quiet moments that still linger. Sleeping with Mommy and Daddy wont last forever, and I know only too soon you will be begging to join us. And as heartbreaking as it is to see you have to learn or relearn something new and difficult, it is part of your tremendous growth that is surprising us each and every day.
I am constantly learning as a parent, and I feel you are our guinea pig in this world, just as I was once. Daddy and I are trying hard to not make mistakes and do everything right. We love you so much and want you to dream big as you embark on life. Don't grow too quickly, I am not ready. So let's slow down and snuggle and laugh and be silly forever!

Love, 
Mommy