This month has been a rough one to be short.
Especially the 23rd. We thought we were preparing to have another little life join our family but it was taken before we had a chance to truly understand what was happening. I've been left in a state of confusion and pain. I am truly blessed by loving family. But the loneliness of it all consumes me at times. This little quote brightened my day and reminded me that sometimes even though our trials suck us dry of ambition or energy, happiness and optimism builds us. So for now I truly felt challenged to put the smile on through the pain and look to the future ahead. Even if it feels like a fake face on me at times, this little family of mine needs building.
And with that energy of happiness I decided to win that inner battle and throw away these painful reminders that this year would be another baby year.
It felt so huge.
Like a burden had been lifted.
I still sleep with a literally heavy heart and my breathing seems so burdensome still like someone stepping on my chest continually but...
for now we will keep praying for baby.
And concentrate on all the little things that truly make our lives great!
